Getting There On Time--At Last!
Turns out that when I really want to go someplace--not just thinking this is what I want (or should want, or should do out of some fear of what will happen, or, especially, some fear of what someone will think about me, etc.), but a true path of joy for me, I find that I feel a downhill/downstream pull that gets me there with a lot less energy than usual...almost as if the way were lubricated with new snow and my sled just speeds over those old patches that used to typically hang me up and "make me late"....
If, additionally, the decision to go is itself a triumph (such as knowing my life is now set up so that I can go do a half-day meditation retreat on a Wednesday morning, after having spent Monday at the beach, having been able to stay up late the night before, and knowing I'll spend Friday out playing...whilst still paying all my bills...and whilst in different stages of exploring two different job opportunities [both of which I'll probably turn down because they're not fun enough])......
or a stretch in a positive direction (such as deciding to sort of "come out of the closet" by attending a public class on how to apply one's meditation and cognitive coaching/counseling skills toward depression...when I used to be ashamed [yes, ashamed!] to even let close friends know that I'm depressed or that I struggle with depression)......
then, I find that the triumph and stretch both generate excitement for me......
which generates additional energy and an almost kid-like, "Is it time to open presents yet?!?" anticipation to get there...and, next thing I know, I'm going, "Wow, I'm early. This is new territory: How do I act?!?" ;-)
So, in short, following the path of joy and excitement seems to dissolve my lateness pattern. Which sort of makes logical sense...since (like, "duh!") if I'm drawn to go to whatever it is because I'm feeling genuine joy and excitement about it, then it's really no surprise to find myself counting the minutes until I can leave, and in that "can't wait to get there" state of mind.... Ironically, if I'm in that state of mind, then it barely bothers me if I happen to be late anyway...which might just be the true power of all this....
If, additionally, the decision to go is itself a triumph (such as knowing my life is now set up so that I can go do a half-day meditation retreat on a Wednesday morning, after having spent Monday at the beach, having been able to stay up late the night before, and knowing I'll spend Friday out playing...whilst still paying all my bills...and whilst in different stages of exploring two different job opportunities [both of which I'll probably turn down because they're not fun enough])......
or a stretch in a positive direction (such as deciding to sort of "come out of the closet" by attending a public class on how to apply one's meditation and cognitive coaching/counseling skills toward depression...when I used to be ashamed [yes, ashamed!] to even let close friends know that I'm depressed or that I struggle with depression)......
then, I find that the triumph and stretch both generate excitement for me......
which generates additional energy and an almost kid-like, "Is it time to open presents yet?!?" anticipation to get there...and, next thing I know, I'm going, "Wow, I'm early. This is new territory: How do I act?!?" ;-)
So, in short, following the path of joy and excitement seems to dissolve my lateness pattern. Which sort of makes logical sense...since (like, "duh!") if I'm drawn to go to whatever it is because I'm feeling genuine joy and excitement about it, then it's really no surprise to find myself counting the minutes until I can leave, and in that "can't wait to get there" state of mind.... Ironically, if I'm in that state of mind, then it barely bothers me if I happen to be late anyway...which might just be the true power of all this....
posted by Rich at 12:31 AM
2 Comments:
Dude u write well........though i dint read evrything u have written in the blog but surely i get bak to it one day.......and u should continue writing :)
Hi Rich ~
Life is amazing with lots and lots of perspectives and experiences.
I used to be super early because I absolutely could not handle the thought of someone waiting for me. I still make it a point to arrive on time. However, I feel a difference in how I manage my schedule. It's not such a big deal if I am a few minutes late or if I need to cancel. I imagine that those few minutes or my need to reschedule, actually give the other person exactly the opportunity they need. I trust that the world (or more specifically my world) will not come to a crashing end if I am late. For me, I think this is about a healthy level of self-acceptance. I wonder if there's some of that in your experience as well?
Warmly ~
Cassandra
p.s. I'll be on time tomorrow morning - I hope you are too!
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